I am a grandma!

Well, another Christmas is over and the New Year is about to begin.  2015 is not a year I want to remember.  But I am hopeful for 2016. A short recap, my psycho neighbor, lost a friend of 20+ years, then her dog died, then my dog is gone. I miss Kayla so much.  I love you, baby. Enough is enough.  Hopefully my vertigo will go away quickly and things will return to normal. I have a positive outlook for 2016.  Looking forward to time spent with Cassidy, maybe a new dog (rescue of course) and a stress free year (as much as possible). Off with the old and on with the new.  A very happy new year to all my friends.  Health and happiness and love to all. TTFN.

Not a bad week.  Got a lot of stuff done.  Got back my Christmas decorations after a year of them being lost.  Lent them to my son a couple of years ago, then, when I asked for them back, he couldn't find them.  I was so upset as the stuff they produce now is garbage.  Some very special pieces in there.  So happy to have them back. Last day for registration into classes is Monday.  YAHOOOO!  No more whiney students wanting to get into full classes.  Not a lot happening otherwise.  Weather is supposed to even out this week, thankfully.  Mid-September and we still have temps in the 90s.  Too much.  Made a stew today and it smells soooooooo good.  Cooking in the crockpot.  Yum.  Just in time for the cooler weather. Anyhow, not much else happening.  Hope you all have a wonderful rest of the weekend and a peaceful week ahead.  TTFN.

Well, after talking to my friends boys I feel much better.  Seems I am not the only person she has done this to.  So sad, she alienated her boys, hardly saw her grandsons.  I just spent the day with one of the grandchildren and he was absolutely delightful.  She has missed out on a lot and all her own fault. Sad that someone can have the attitude that they must control everything and end up driving so many people away because of it.  I heard her stories, then her sons told me the other side of things.  She was wrong.  You don't tell your children that their choice of a mate (life partner) is wrong and try to break them up.  How sad.  You only end up pushing them farther away.  I have not always agreed with my son's choices, but they were his choices, and he had to learn.   Which he did. I just hope she has found peace now.  Lord knows she was her own worst enemy in life. TTFN.

I have had the opportunity to hold and play with Cheryl's 5-month old grandson this week.  Too bad that her relationship with her boys was such that they moved so far away.   What a delightful baby.  All smiles and giggles.  Too bad she is missing out on this. Her boys are wonderful.  They wrote up the most fantastic obit for her.  Sad that they couldn't say all that to her while she was still alive.  Just goes to show you.  She was the type that wouldn't tell you what was going on, but then got mad when you didn't ask what was wrong. Oh, well.  Funeral on Sunday.  Life will be different from now on.  RIP Cheryl.  I hope you find the happiness you didn't find here. TTFN.

A friend of over 30 years died recently.  I was so angry that she hadn't told me anything of what was going on.  We were good friends until just before she left for Guatamala to see her grandson being born.  When she got back, she shut me out completely.  Then I found out through rumor that she had died.   Well, I found out tonight the reason she cut me off. She had been dealing with heart problems for a couple of years now. I am guessing when she got back from Guatamala, it was discovered she had kidney problems also. She left for Guatamala just after I had my psycho neighbor arrested. Apparently, when she got back, she confided in a mutual friend that we hadn't paid enough attention to her when she was so fragile. She decided she couldn't deal with my drama any more so cut me off completely, even though at that time it was over. So, my neighbor threatening to kill me and terrorizing me for months was supposed to be flipped off so we could gather around her and say

I am almost afraid to say that life has been great the last couple of months, I don't want to jinx it.  LOL.  My new neighbor is a delightful older man, probably in his 70s, who only speaks Spanish.  He hit on me the other day and seemed disappointed that I wasn't interested in a romantic relationship.  I told him: Amigo, si, amore, non.   LOL.  He is a lovely man, but I just don't see the merits of a relationship where I can't understand what he is saying.  Anyhow, another week and a half before my 3 week vacation.  I will have Cassie for a week in the middle, so it should be fun.  Can't do much with Kayla these days as she is getting too old to do what she used to.   But that is OK.  Anyhow, the heat is supposed to ease tomorrow.  Thank goodness.  Have a great rest of the week, my friends. TTFN.

The change, since the psycho neighbor is gone, is unbelievable.  So more relaxed.  Kayla has not had tummy troubles since he is gone.  Wow.  Just goes to show.  My blood pressure seems to have stabilized since then, too.  All in all, a god thing. Have a great weekend, my friends. TTFN.

Has been a busy month.  Too much going on both at work and at home.  So tired.  Had a friend betray me.  That is not fun.  But I am not going to pursue it as it is just too draining.  She is the type that gets pissed if you have a drama bigger than she does.  I am too old to be dealing with this high school shit. Things are so much better since the psycho moved out.  Kayla is more relaxed and so am I.  Will be changing bosses after next week.  That is a good thing.  The one there now is so controlling.   She has to have the last say over everything.  She wants to oversee everything, then complains she is overworked.  Never mind that I have been doing my job for almost 30 years, it has to go through her first.  Oh, well.  That is life. This summer I intend to enjoy my granddaughter and my dog.  That is what life is about.  I just wish the weather would cooperate.  3 days of 80+ temps, now today hasn't been above 45.  Hate this time of year.  I should be used to it by now, bu

What a week.  First, Doctor's appointment for my MRI results.  Turns out I have arthritis in my spine.  That has what has been causing me pain.  Next day was the Regie.  What a farce!  Landlord tried to make it look like I was a bitch complaining about normal noise from the neighbor.  All I can hope is that the judge, who looked like a smart woman, would take into account that the police do not arrest someone, and the courts ban someone from returning to their home, because of loud TV or radio noise.  Have to wait another week or so to get the judgement. The students have been on strike for the last couple of weeks and are causing all kinds of havoc.  More headaches.  Oh, well.  Those are the least of my problems.  On the bright side, Cassie had to see the pediatrician yesterday and Greg brought her by my office after.  Such a sweetheart.   She was all smiles and giggles.  Really brightened my week.  Anyhow, that is enough of my griping this week.  Thanks for listening. H

Now that the main drama is over, everything seems a little surreal. Kayla, who hasn't slept in my room for months, has started coming in again.  I am slowly beginning to talk normally, cough or sneeze normally, again.  I do get moments of panic, especially on the weekends, but am starting to get back to normal.  Wow.  Never thought I would ever feel like this.  Need to find my center again and start living a normal life.  Have a great week, my friends. TTFN

Strange, right after my last post I was basically attacked by my neighbor when I took Kayla for her last walk of the day.  He actually threatened to kill me.  What is mind-boggling is that his father sat in his car and did nothing.  The neighbor even kicked in my front door.  Thank goodness I had my cell phone with me.  The police arrived and they arrested him on the spot.  He was apparently released and the courts have ordered that he is not to return to this building.  It is now day 4 of him being gone and the difference is noticeable.  Kayla has not woken me up once in the last 4 days.  She is also much calmer.  I have finally had a few full nights of sleep.  Amazing.  There is a much less toxic feel to the building. Sucks that my fridge died on a Friday.  Means that they can't get me a new one until Monday.  Have to keep most of my stuff in the window to keep it cool.  Oh, well.  Short term irritation.  LOL.  Have a great rest of weekend and week, my friends. TTFN.

I feel terrible.  I love my animals.  I really do.  But I am going through a very difficult time right now.  The cat has suddenly become very affectionate and clingy.  The dog is terrified of every sound and noise.  I haven't slept a full night in months.  I spend so much time comforting and taking care of them.  Yet there is nobody there to comfort or take care of me. I know it sounds selfish, but I just don't know how much energy I have left.  This is really taking a toll on me.  "Friends" don't want to hear about it anymore.  Can't really blame them.  But I have always been there for them.  Guess I know who my real friends are, and there aren't many.  Just so tired of this whole damned mess.  Grrrrrrrrrrrr. TTFN.

May the Goddess forgive me, but I am having visions of what I could do to my neighbor.  They involve a 2 X 4 across his nose.  :-)  He is terrorizing my dog.  That I cannot forgive.  Please let this end soon.  It may sound selfish, but I would like to have 1 full night of sleep,  But mostly, I don't want my Kaylagirl to have these panic attacks. I would love to break his nose just for terrifying my girl.  But that would bring me to his level.  I do so understand an eye for an eye.  Just the law seems to favor the other person.  Grrrrrr.

Feeling a little down.  The neighbor has really been taking a toll on Kayla and me.  This weekend, I have had to deal with having a cold.  Then my cable box died.  Not big things, by any means, but little things to add on to other little things.  Then friends who say they care, but don't even ask how you are doing.  My landlord had the gaul to give me a rent increase.  Wow,  Despite everything that is going on.  While the neighbor isn't as bad as he was, he still chips away at my sanity little by little.  Drop the charges?  Yeah, right.  The prick.  Hoping he gets what he deserves. TTFN.

Wow, tomorrow I turn 59.  Where did the years go.  I have a granddaughter.  My son is settled with a wonderful woman. I feel safe in saying "a job well done".  Just wish the rest of my life would fall into order as well.  Kayla keeps getting diarrhea.  I leave her "litter box" out for her, but it is guaranteed that, as soon as she is normal and I put the box away, it comes back.  So weird.  Not changing anything in her diet.  Why do I always get the ones with the sensitive tummies?  LOL.  Anyhow, not much to report these days. Have a great weekend, my friends. TTFN. 

So, after hoping that my nightmare with my neighbor would be over in a couple of weeks, everything is postponed.  I can't believe that my landlord is asking me to drop all charges.  Obviously "Daddy", who is his good friend, is putting pressure on him.  Do they think so little of women?  It is freaking unbelievable.    I was even offered 5 months of rent free along with all kinds of rent reductions.  They really believe this will make up for almost a year of abuse.  This punk obviously gets away with a lot and seems to think Daddy will get him out of everything.  Damn rich people.  Don't know who they are dealing with. I just can't believe, in this day and age, that men are still thinking women are useless.  Anyhow, postponed until April.  Hopefully it will be over sooner. Have a great weekend, my friends. TTFN