I am a grandma!

So this year is almost over.  It has been a tough one.  Mainly due to my psycho neighbor.  But it has also been good in many ways.  Cassie is getting so big and developing a great personality.  Kayla has slowed down soooooo much.  I am almost thinking she won't make it to Summer.  That is the heartbreak of owning a dog.  She started having her panic attacks again, but with the pheromones and the white noise, they seem to be calming down.  Funny how the kids asked about babysitting availability because the daycare closes down for the holidays, but when you ask, they have made all kinds of other arrangements.  Not that I am complaining.  I did my childcare.  Dealt with all these problems.  They are learning. To all my friends, I wish you a wonderful New Year with lots of happy surprises and few miseries.  I hope you have a wonderful year.  TTFN

OK, I am almost 60 years old and never expected my life to end up like this.  2014 has sucked.  Since the birth of Cassidy, I seem to be persona non grata.  I will be having another Christmas day alone.  The saying of "A son is a son until he takes a wife" seems to be true.  She ends up taking my son and my granddaughter to her parents on Christmas day.  Which means I will be alone most of the day.  This year, I have had to deal with being terrorized by my neighbor.  I need family more than ever, but it is not there.  I don't want to guilt my son into anything.  Her family is too large to fit into my apartment, or I would invite them all here.  I don't know what I have done to deserve this.  Everything just seems to keep getting worse.  What the fuck?  My life has just been one big suck after another.  Karma, whatever I did to deserve this, I am sorry.  Please get the hell away from me.

Maybe I am just being weird tonight.  Not sure.  But my life has been crap.  I try to do the right thing.  I try to help whenever I can. But nothing ever seems to go right for me.  My son and my granddaughter are the light of my life, but everything else seems to be dark.  Nothing goes right.  Why?  I hate this.  I am being terrorized by my neighbor, but nothing is being done about it.  I did nothing to deserve this. I haven't had a full night sleep in weeks.  I just don't get it.  Maybe I am over-reacting.  Don't think so, but still, it takes its toll.  Sigh.  Guess I just have to grin and bare it.