May the Goddess forgive me, but I am having visions of what I could do to my neighbor. They involve a 2 X 4 across his nose. :-) He is terrorizing my dog. That I cannot forgive. Please let this end soon. It may sound selfish, but I would like to have 1 full night of sleep, But mostly, I don't want my Kaylagirl to have these panic attacks. I would love to break his nose just for terrifying my girl. But that would bring me to his level. I do so understand an eye for an eye. Just the law seems to favor the other person. Grrrrrr.
I am so conflicted. Got a text from my brother that my mom has died. Don't really feel much. She had me at 16, no judgement, and gave me up a year later. Then she had another child that she gave up. Then she had my brother, all different fathers. Still no judgement. She then went on to have 2 more with someone she married, However, whenever I met her, all the talk was about how everything went with her "family". This had nothing to do with me, the "family" she gave me to was extremely abusive. So, while I regret she has died, I don't have any real feelings. It is what it is. She had pancreatic cancer, so I felt it was more beneficial for her to pass. Then, today, I learned that a neighbor, and a good friend, passed. I watched the ambulance outside of my apartment for quite a while. I felt more for the neighbor than I did for my mom. I am not a horrible person for this. I perceive this as you get what you put into this. Olga, I am so sorry I didn't get t...
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