Happy freakin' Mother's Day.  Have to admit I started out crying then just got angry.  This is the 2nd important day for me, the first being my birthday.  But once again I am alone the whole day.

Sure, I got a phone call, Happy Mother's Day, no I love you, mom.  Yes I got a present about 3 weeks ago, but nothing beats an I love you or just popping in. 

Can't even go anywhere as I don't have my car.  You guessed it, he borrowed it for yesterday and isn't bringing it back until after work today.  Not even a "do you need the car today?  I can bring it back before going to work."

I can't count the times Greg was put first before anything else, but I am always last with him.  Kids.  Life's biggest joys and also life's biggest heartaches.

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