Have been terrible about posting. So many things happening. JoJo ate my glasses, my sofa, etc. etc. She is almost 2 years old now, hopefully she will stop soon. Training is going well. Except she is still skittish with people. Want to get the trainer to work on that. But her and Cian are good buddies. Still have to use the muzzle on her during the day when I am not here. Otherwise she is doing great. Love them both to bits. Cassie starts school next week. How did the time go so fast. She lost her first tooth. She is so pretty. Light of my life.
I am so conflicted. Got a text from my brother that my mom has died. Don't really feel much. She had me at 16, no judgement, and gave me up a year later. Then she had another child that she gave up. Then she had my brother, all different fathers. Still no judgement. She then went on to have 2 more with someone she married, However, whenever I met her, all the talk was about how everything went with her "family". This had nothing to do with me, the "family" she gave me to was extremely abusive. So, while I regret she has died, I don't have any real feelings. It is what it is. She had pancreatic cancer, so I felt it was more beneficial for her to pass. Then, today, I learned that a neighbor, and a good friend, passed. I watched the ambulance outside of my apartment for quite a while. I felt more for the neighbor than I did for my mom. I am not a horrible person for this. I perceive this as you get what you put into this. Olga, I am so sorry I didn't get t...


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