I feel terrible.  I love my animals.  I really do.  But I am going through a very difficult time right now.  The cat has suddenly become very affectionate and clingy.  The dog is terrified of every sound and noise.  I haven't slept a full night in months.  I spend so much time comforting and taking care of them.  Yet there is nobody there to comfort or take care of me. I know it sounds selfish, but I just don't know how much energy I have left.  This is really taking a toll on me.  "Friends" don't want to hear about it anymore.  Can't really blame them.  But I have always been there for them.  Guess I know who my real friends are, and there aren't many.  Just so tired of this whole damned mess.  Grrrrrrrrrrrr.

TTFN.

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