It is now 9 months that I have been working from home. So tired of this. People are being idiots and not listening to the rules of the health services. How selfish. Haven't seen my family for a while. Won't see them (except by zoom) for Christmas. I am forgetting how to talk to people. Work is insane at the moment. I know the vaccine is here, but I don't even know when, or if, I will be able to get it. What do people not understand about this situation? I am tired. And now Winter is setting in. The cold is getting to me. At least I will be having Christmas eve dinner with a neighbor. That is something I am looking forward to. I am also turning 65 next year. So many big events. Arggghhhh!!
I am so conflicted. Got a text from my brother that my mom has died. Don't really feel much. She had me at 16, no judgement, and gave me up a year later. Then she had another child that she gave up. Then she had my brother, all different fathers. Still no judgement. She then went on to have 2 more with someone she married, However, whenever I met her, all the talk was about how everything went with her "family". This had nothing to do with me, the "family" she gave me to was extremely abusive. So, while I regret she has died, I don't have any real feelings. It is what it is. She had pancreatic cancer, so I felt it was more beneficial for her to pass. Then, today, I learned that a neighbor, and a good friend, passed. I watched the ambulance outside of my apartment for quite a while. I felt more for the neighbor than I did for my mom. I am not a horrible person for this. I perceive this as you get what you put into this. Olga, I am so sorry I didn't get t...
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